Thoughts

As a pastor it is very common to experience both highs and lows within minutes of each others. Let me explain. I can get right excited when I see the many people that are serving at the Peanut Butter Extravaganza. I can get real excited after hearing the great things God is doing in the lives of people at CATF. I can hit the roof when I see answered prayer. I am pumped up when one person from the church is connecting with a needy person and another person buys a microwave for that needy person - two are better than one:-)

On the other hand I can feel kinda down because I feel like I don't live up to every one's expectations - not that I should or ever will but it's a struggle most pastors have. I have a heavy heart when I think about the hurting families and individuals that share their struggles with me. I feel a lot of pain for those that just stay home and don't gather regularly - I'm not speaking of vacation time - I'm speaking of just staying away from the place that can make such a huge difference in life. I hurt for the world around me - so many needs. I struggle with whether we are making a big enough difference. I hurt for those that make choices that lead them away from God.
Some of you are thinking - Brandon - you can't control any of that. I know, but I'm human and it's a pastoral reality:-) Let me say this, it is my privilege to share in the highest highs and lowest lows. It's what I have been called to do...but it doesn't make it any easier.

Please understand there are times when I am not available. To be very frank, I need down time. I am very selective in what additional social gatherings and activities I attend. I need to reserve my energy for the spiritual well being of the church. It's not that I don't care but it's who I am - social gatherings drain the life out of me. You might see me upfront on a Sunday morning and think I'm an extrovert - couldn't be further from the truth. I love speaking to groups but don't like being part of the group. I love talking to people or families one on one, but get exhausted in social settings. I pour myself into the spiritual leadership of CATF and that leaves little energy for the social events that may come along and little energy means they fall to real low priority. Please understand, I care very much, that's why I say no to certain activities or opt out.

That's just a little about my unique challenges and I share this so you can better pray for me and understand me. I'm just a little weird like the rest of you:-) Please don't pray that I change - I am who God created me to be. Pray that I maximize the talents, gifts and personality that God has given me. Pray that people respect who I am and not try to make me something I'm not. I will do the same for you. You are an amazing individual created by an amazing God. We are all in this together - supporting one another.